Be alert and watch. Simply witness. Observe.
Can you sense the love in everything? Soak in this unconditional love. Radiate it.
Infinite love.
This is actually a message I got during meditation. And, while it was so clear and wonderful during that fraction of a second, a moment later, my mind responded. Using a lethal combination of blows infused with sarcasm and egoic excitement, I witnessed something completely different. It as a little storm inside of me. “Soak in this”, said the voice. “A storm is coming”. Haha. Now what?
Allow yourself to let go. But, avoid mind rabbit holes.
I first learned about the concept of letting go when I went down that infamous forgiveness rabbit hole. Little did I know, I attempted to do it on a mind level. I tried to follow the logic and address it intellectually. Needless to say, that was brutal. I could totally see the rational in forgiving, but then, something just kept holding and didn’t want to let go.
What is it? Why can’t I forgive if I am not even mad anymore? What’s wrong with me? Turned out, there’s a distinction that needs to be made here. When it comes to forgiveness, it’s not really what happened that is important, but the meaning you still give to it. Or, identify with it.
So it became very clear that something in me still thought it was important not to forgive. Need to stay guarded so it won’t happen again. Right? “You can not be troubled by something you have no interest in.” (Moji). Sounds familiar?
But then I meditated. And all of this emotional burden, anger, etc. dissolved. On that state, all is clear. These emotions don’t carry any weight. There’s no need to justify or convince yourself to forgive, because the truth is, there’s only love here. What exactly are anger or resentment? I can’t even say. I feel love just asking this question. All I can feel is love. Love to the self. Love to life. And by self, I don’t mean me vs. you. Both of us are one. Both of us are life. The me or I, are not isolated or personal.
Then comes the mind
But then, I got a message from my mother. Something she wrote triggered a series of “mind blows”. The storm is not coming. It is already here. And its not just a storm. Winter is coming.
A great way to learn about letting go, is to observe the relationship between parents and their kids. Especially, when the kids get older.
On a mind level, I had a really hard time “accepting” my parents. More accurately, their personalities. Sure, they mean well and always did what they thought was right. They did not want to mess me up or scar me for life on purpose. That’s for sure. But, as the “next generation”, my mind often criticizes their rational or skills. Not only as parents but as individuals. It seems that there’s a part that still thinks they are the adults and I am the child. And because of that, I still need to listen to them, or else…I may get punished. They may send me to my room or say how disappointed they are. No new toys. No TV…I better impress them, because their approval matters to me. Clearly, all these memories are somehow still relevant. To my mind, they are still important.
But then, there’s this completely opposite part who tries to defend its “freedom” and independence. You can call this ego, or whatever name you like. And this part, strongly rebels.
Now, How funny is this “relationship cycle” between parents and their kids, right? Parents start and criticize their children to “educate” them. Sometimes, they do it to feel powerful. It doesn’t really matter why. Decades later, this judgment comes back to them from their own kids. With a vengeance. How ironic.
Or maybe, there’s a reason here.
Is it because we simply “learn” this behavior of judging from our parents? And then, they learn back through us about acceptance and letting go? Or, maybe its just the way things are supposed to be? I sometimes wonder if this applies to anything we witness that comes and goes into our life. All these events, circumstances and people. Whether we are aware of it or not…as long as there is something that is important to us that we are attached to…it appears that we then attract these synchronicities. And, if we start and paying attention, we can see ourselves in these situations, or other people. Or, in nature.
And then, you witness
Take a minute to yourself. Leave all this mind stuff out for one minute. Close your eyes. Observe.
From a “watcher” point of view, all these “earthly” problems and issues seem weightless. So light, they don’t carry any weight. There’s no burden. You can say these “problems” don’t even have any meaning to you anymore. So, there’s no good vs. bad, right or wrong, beautiful, ugly. There’s no qualification, interpretation or any personal opinion. These are all mind concepts.
And just like that, many of the life conflicts, problems, and troubles dissolve. We can use these mind blows to learn about our attachments. We can clearly see these ideas and beliefs we still have. And truly let them go. Then, all this energy is released and relief is here. And guess what? It’s summertime.
There’s one more thing. I find that there’s another empowering piece here. After this realization, when another mind storm will come, your mind will also remember this “witness” state, and how it feels. Soon, that one minute of inner peace will turn into an entire day of nothing but bliss and joy. Then, a day may turn to weeks…weeks to months. This is who you are. This is who we are. You can also say, this is, what life is.
Until our next talk, aloha and love.
